"It was one of those nights where... I decided to look up 'male escorts in my home state'. Just see what comes up... And that's when I stumbled upon Ryan's profile." Contains: personal, sex work, my first time This is an extremely different audio from me (and the first one I've posted in like a year and a half). More of a reflection of something that I went through over the course of 2025 and early into 2026. I felt like I needed some way to convey my thoughts and figured maybe it would be good to share it. How I ended up in this situation, the process, my feelings to the best of my ability Heads up: my experience is not universal with those others have had. If you choose to dip your toes into this world, what you go through is going to be different. I've also left out some details (especially locations) to maintain my privacy.