Guzma has some late night thoughts he wants to share with you. Contains: Comfort, Talking about the Universe, Potentially Existential Crisis Inducing Dialog, Encouragement, Pet Names (Hon) Hey, sometimes you just gotta talk out what's on your mind, and maybe it's sometimes comforting, in some way? The stuff Guzma talks about in this are things that I sometimes think about, and I kind of share the same attitude about it that he does. So I hope maybe some of you find this comforting? lol Also, this is our first exclusive SFW audio on Patreon! Thank you all so much again for your patronage and I can't wait to continue and do more! ~Audio Transcript Below~ Guzma: I know I say it a lot….but I like layin’ here with you. Not doin’ anything more than just…..layin’ here…..being with each other….kinda basking in each other’s existence and just being, ya know? *chuckles* I don’t know. I was just kinda thinkin’....about stuff you know? About how like….really….in the grand scheme of things, what we do, shouldn’t really matter, right? I mean, unless it’s something horrible like, murder or somethin’, but…..d’ya get what I mean? *chuckles* Ya givin’ me that look again hun. Let me explain then. What I mean is like….in the grand scheme of the world or like the cosmos or whatever, what we do doesn’t matter. We as people, no matter how hard we try, no matter what we do, we’re just a speck on a speck hurtlin’ through infinite space. I know that thought can be kind of---uh---existential crisis inducing, but….I honestly think it’s kind of freeing, you know? A lot of people focus on tryin’ to like leave a legacy or try to make the world a better place, or somethin’ like that, and, not to say that that’s bad or anything, and that they shouldn’t, but it also means that you don’t have to do those things to exist you know? Because when it all comes down to it, when like the human race is all said and done, it doesn’t matter what we’ve done. You don’t have to feel bad for not trying to be the best in the world at something or trying to cure some disease or stuff like that. You can just be you, and make the choices you want to make. The universe doesn’t give a shit about whether or not you’re the best cook or the best scientist, or the best pokemon trainer, and it doesn’t care whether or not you’re the worst, or fuck, even average. It can be scary to think about too, I can admit that, that all your accomplishments in the world won’t mean too much to you after you’re gone, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do them. If anything, it’s amazing that even if we don’t mean that much in the universe, that we still do those things, that we still try to make the world a better place, that we still even try. That’s what kind of amazing about it, that continue to make these choices and live instead of just sitting and doing nothing. And hell, in the same respect, even if you don’t do anything, it doesn’t matter either. I think that’s my point. Nothing matters, it’s all made up, so like, you can have that fourth cookie or like go on that trip if you can afford it. I’m not talking about being reckless but like, the little things we care about and put so much negative focus on don’t really matter, so we should be able to do them without fear. We’re all gonna die one day, like that’s an eventuality, so shouldn’t we fill our lives with as many of the things that we want to do as possible, so we don’t regret it when it’s all over? We can be ourselves--as long as it aint shitty, like I said--because we’re one person out of like seven billion or some junk on a single planet in an ever expanding universe that doesn’t give a shit. We as humans are brave enough to think about that void, to look into that void and continue to dare to exist, continue to do what we do, even in the face of none of it mattering. So live in the moment while it’s happening, bask in the good things that happen or the good things you choose and you work for and the opportunities that come your way if you can take them, because you don’t know when you won’t be able to anymore. *chuckles* Yeah….a lot of people don’t take me much for a thinker…..but like….there was a time, where I was just doin’ all the things I thought I was supposed to do…..the things people told me I should do, and I fucking hated it. It finally hit me one day that I didn’t want to fucking live like that anymore. I’ve only got one go around on this big blue marble, and I’m gonna do it like I want to. Maybe I make mistakes along the way, and maybe everything I want is not the best for me, and sometimes you have to be reasonable, but if you don’t try to be who you want to be, what’s even the point? That’s why I’m here, with you. Because I wanna be. You matter enough for me to be right here, and to hopefully spend the rest of however long you continue to put up with me with. Right now, in the whole entire universe, there’s no place I’d rather be, Hon. I love you. *chuckles* I don’t even know if that’s comforting or even really makes too much sense outside my brain, but well….that’s just it…...it doesn’t really matter does it? So let’s just lay here together…..and just…..be.