NOTE: This is an old Patreon Exclusive audio that's been released for the public. This audio was created over 2 years ago so the microphone quality will not be the same as it is now. An apology? After all that's happened, he's come back with an apology? Contains: Apologies, Confession, Ambiguous Mentions of Past Abuse/Manipulation The whole concept I came up for in this script was that during this time of year, the transition between winter and spring is seen as a new beginning, and so its the idea of Loki kind of coming back from the events that happened in Thor: Ragnarok with a new perspective on how much of an asshole he was before lol. There's a lot of unspoken history implied in this audio, but I feel like maybe everyone listening might have a different idea of what that betrayal and using might look like. Also, I wanted to leave the ending open ended, like the listener could decide for themselves whether or not they forgive him. Sorry this is more of a character/scenario exploration rather than a cute romance audio, but I hope you all enjoy regardless! ~Audio Transcript Below~ Loki: Have you ever had the suspicion that someone is talking about you when you're not around? *pause* *hums* Yes Darling......it's me...... *punch* OOF--! *wheezes slightly, then through teeth* Alright.....yes, I do believe I deserved that one...... *hisses a breath through teeth and clears throat* Now-- *slap* Ah! Alright, yes, and that one----Would you--! *sighs* Would you kindly please stop hitting me while I'm trying to apologize! *pause* *sighs* Yes......that's why I'm here........ *pause* There are......many reasons why it's taken as long as it has however.....I can share them in detail with you after I've done what I've come here to do......which I mentioned......is apologize .....have you ever known me to sincerely apologize where it does not benefit my personal wellbeing to do so? *sighs* I thought you'd be more surprised....is all..... *pause* Right, right.....no more injuries please, I'll get to it...... I'm not expecting forgiveness, or that....everything will change once I've done it.....or....you won't immediately try to break me in half, but in the passage of time between our last.....meeting.....many things have happened.....and I've.....realized....that......I was not a good person....to you.....to say the least and...... *pause* ---Yes I'm stalling because believe it or not, I'm nervous..... *sighs* Yes......incredibly so.......my time away was not spent....entirely on myself...... I.....you have heard....of Thor's time on Sakaar? And....what happened to Asgard? And our......father....and sister? He was not the only one who was....there.....when it all happened....... He told you......yes....right then.....well.....he and I......during that time.....reconciled....... I......at first tried to do what I always do....and....it didn't work out well for me--big surprise, as it usually doesn't--and I realized that.....I've.....been an arse.....for most of my life.....through good reason.....however that isn't the point.......the point is......is that Thor and I ......reconciled...... .....and if I can reconcile with.....Thor of all people.......then it's only fair and right that I attempt to reconcile with someone who meant more to me than him.....even at my most...-- ---Arse-hole-ness......yes. *pause* To be perfectly honest......no.......I don't regret all of the bad things that I did. I don't regret being a bad---well.....evil person, really. Those things can't be changed.....and even if I could change them, I wouldn't......because those events led me to you...... And I know....that my word could.....and probably should be taken with a grain of salt.....that changed actions speak louder than an apology and promises.....however..... One thing I do regret.....is.....hurting you.....taking you for granted.....using you.....for my own gain in the end...... I was.....frightened.....about how much I cared.....and I thought....or....it got into my head somehow that caring would make me weaker......would make it so that I couldn't accomplish my goals.....that caring wouldn't make me happy...but.......I was wrong......I was very wrong......it doesn't justify how I treated you....and....then I just......left....... That's why......it's taken so long for this to....happen in the first place......I was afraid of your rejection....afraid......of what would come of it......but then I realized that once again.....I was thinking about myself......and that......if anything......at the very least......you deserve an apology from me...... So....I'm sorry.....I'm....incredibly sorry......I am.....the most sorry about mistreating you than I have been about.....pretty much anything else in my life...... I didn't come here expecting everything to be perfectly fine....and for you to take me back without any questions asked or any trouble........I genuinely care for you......and......I want to try to be better.....for you.....for us....... And if this conversation ends with you walking away......with you....condemning me and our relationship.....if it ends with you....trying to do me in because of the frankly horrendous way I treated you.....then so be it.....I deserve nothing less....... *pause* My want.....my, hope really......is that you will grant me.....one sliver of trust that I may build upon.......I know I've done nothing to warrant it......but I still yearn for it.......yearn for you..... In truth......you are the best thing that ever happened to me.......and I have to accept that I might've been the that ever happened to you....... But I'm here......and for the first time.....I'm willing to accept the consequences of my actions....... *pause* Wait....before you answer.....one more thing.....and....I'm not trying to say this to....manipulate you into anything.....I just want to state the truth.....and say something that I don't believe I ever said enough......... *swallows* I love you........