He's been able to keep it together for this long, but he's ready now, more than ever..... Contains: Established Relationship, Implied First Time (together), A/B/O Dynamics and Themes, Touch Starved Bucky, Breeding Kink, Scent Kink, Sub! Bucky, Kissing, Mild Size Difference, Bondage, Restraints, Talk of Safeword Usage, Teasing, Begging, Use of Russian, Handjob, Mild Praise/Humiliation Kink, Rut!sex, Bareback sex, Implied Safe Sex, Lotus Position, Creampie, Aftercare, Petnames (Doll, Babydoll, Sweetheart) Another lovely commission! They wanted A/B/O Dynamics with some fun play with the themes and roles, and it was very fun to perform! I always love a good subversion of tropes. I also just want to give kudos to the commissioner, since they wrote the script for this and did a wonderful job! I hope you all enjoy! ~Audio Transcript Below~ Bucky: Hey… doll? It's… uh, it's almost time… -pause- -flustered grunt- Why do you want me to say it outright? You know what I mean… -pause- You just like teasing me, don't you? -sigh- My… my rut, doll. It’s… starting up again. You can probably smell it on me by now… -pause- Uh, that's… actually what I wanted to… talk to you about. -quieter- I think I'm ready to… stay with you through it if you still… want to try? You know… what we talked about? -pause- Yeah, I'm sure… Until I know I can… handle it, keep control, I don't want to ever risk hurting you. If some vibranium cuffs can ensure I won't… this is what I want. -pause- I know. It's because I don't have to that I want to. Trust me, doll… I'll use that safe word if it's too much. Red, or красный (krasnyy){Red} if I need you to stop and call Steve. And the same goes for you. Just… let me try? Please… -sigh- Thank you… -cloth rustling, cuffs clicking shut- Yeah… they're plenty comfortable. Shuri designed them specifically for me. You know… just in case. I haven't used them until now, since I haven't needed to. Anytime I felt a rut coming, I'd hide in a safe room until I was sure it was over. I just… wanted some sort of backup, I guess. I know there's suppressants, but… I was on them for so long with HYDRA, it's a miracle the stress didn’t kill me outright. Guess I've got the serum to thank for that… -softly- Hey… It's okay now, sweetheart. I'm doing a lot better. And… knowing I can't hurt you even if I lose control, it helps a lot. Are… are they locked? -metal clinking- Good… -shuddering breath- God, I can finally breathe. Fuck. -pause- Yeah, I'm okay… -Snort- Can’t blame a guy for wanting to be careful. I go crazy for your scent even when I'm not ass deep in a rut. It's– -pause- Okay, maybe I'm also… a little nervous… Doesn't change the fact that I'm bigger and a hell of a lot stronger than you. I've got every reason to be cautious. -pause- You want me to… sit? S-sorry, I… yeah, I can sit. -shuffling- Don't… -hissing inhale- don't start with the “good boy’s” unless you really want me to lose it. I – what? You’re… proud of me? But I didn’t do much of anything, I – -muffled whimpers into kiss- -more heated kisses- -panting- It was… brave? Coming to you when I was ready? Fuck. I… I'm okay. It's just… really hitting me now. You’re not even doing anything but straddling me, and I – oh… shit… N-no, don't… don’t move off me. Please, I… I don't know how to describe… I guess I feel so… small for once, when you sit over me like that. Not bad, just… held… like I'm being… taken care of. -flustered- You’re enjoying this, aren’t you? Having me like this… Making me ask for what I want? -pause- -softly- Please… please take care of me, omega. Oh… -sigh- -breathless chuckle- Still obsessed with my chest, huh? -soft moan- I… I didn’t say I don’t like you touching me there… I just… -hiss- S-shit, the… soft scrape of your nails… It's okay… it's good, doll… fuck, it's real good. -panting and moaning- дерьмо! (der'mo!){shit!} If you k-keep… grinding on me like that, I'll… -needy moan- -panting- Why are you - don't leave, I- Oh… s-stripping… -soft cursing- Quit teasing me… -squirming- Shut up… I'm not being… a slut… God, fuck… wanna touch you so bad. N-no, it's… I don’t… I don’t want to use the safeword. I'm still good. Promise. -quietly- It's… strange… I kind of like being like this with you… -pause- Why do you always gotta make me s-say it? -whine- I like it when… you have me under your control… when I can't get what I want immediately, and you tease me… When you… tell me what to do, and I don’t have to think, and… all I can do is… take what you give me. Knowing you'll take care of me… W-what are you… oh. -wet noises- Oh fuck – babydoll… your hands… god, you feel so good… -startled whimper- D-don't… nuzzle against my n-neck like that…! -pause- I… smell that good? S-shit, you… -strained moan- You’re so wet, you're leaking all over my thigh… I can practically taste it… -shaky inhale- Иисус Христос (Iisus Khristos) {Jesus Christ}... Please… please… I need it, doll, I need it so badly… I’ve been waiting so long, I – fuck… -pause- Of course I wanted to be with you before now, I… -swallows- I've always wanted you. So much. That was… part of why I was so afraid… -moan- I’m… I’m sorry… I didn’t think… -sharp gasp- fuck… I… didn't know you wanted it this badly, I – oh ~ -pause- You’re right… i-it was selfish to keep my… -breathy moan- my knot away from you all this time. So selfish. Please… let me fix it. Let me make it up to you, please, I-I'll be good… so good…m Yes… yes! Your alpha. Only yours. I’m sorry! Please let me inside you, милая!(milaya!){sweetheart!} пожалуйста (pozhaluysta){Please} – -pause- -whimper- Yes, fuck… I'll earn it... I'll be good… -pause- Tell… the truth? W-what do you mean, I… -weakly- You know why… I told you why I isolated during my ruts for so long, I… it wasn't… safe – -moan- Only… part of it? -panting- О Боже (O Bozhe){Oh God}... the – just the t-tip… inside you, I… you're killing me, милая (milaya){sweetheart}, you're– -drawn out whine- Fuck… dammit, fine! I'll tell you… -breathy whimpers, nearly sobbing- I didn’t want you to know how… f-fucking bad I wanted it! I didn’t want you to know what a… needy s-slut your alpha was… how bad I wanna breed you full and make you swell with my pups… with something good I did for once… or how I want you to… use me… How bad I wanna… be yours. I want you to bond me, mark my neck up so everyone knows I belong to you… I just didn't know how to ask without sounding… pathetic. I was afraid it w-would push you away… -sniffle- -breathless kiss- I’m… a good boy? -moan- I wanna be good for you… Wanna give you… everything you need. You deserve… so much… please-! Let me give you my knot, omega… I’ll do anything you want, please, please… -gasp- Oh! Thank you~! Иисус Христос (Iisus Khristos) {Jesus Christ}, you f-feel… -panting moans- you’re so… -whimpers- so fucking tight, I can't - I can't think, I - I'm – oh fuck – I'm not gonna last long, babydoll… -panting- It's been so long… so fucking long… it's too much, I'm… fuck… -whimpering- No, don't – please don't stop, not now – F-feels like I'll fuckin’ die if you stop… I just… I wanted it to last longer… Next time…? You want to… again? Shit. Shit - fuck-! Yes… yes~! God, I want it… I want everything, doll, please… -panting and moaning- Close… close… I - you want me to… inside? -keening moan- Oh~! Fuck! C-coming! -fabric ripping- -harsh panting- -panting subsides- -slow kiss- I'm alright, doll… more than alright. Just… uh, the sheets have seen better days. I might've… ripped them apart. -heavy exhale- Christ… -breathless laugh- That was… a lot. -pause- -lazily- Hm? Oh… Yeah, you can… deactivate the cuffs now. I'm… doing okay. At least for a bit. -metal clinking- -sigh- Thanks, doll… Feels good to hold you again… -kiss- -sheepish- I kind of forgot we were gonna be stuck like this for a while… I know it's normal, but… I haven't done this since 1943, and even then… it was never with someone I… really cared about. And I… always used condoms back then. Didn't have the same birth control methods we have today… -pause- You… really don't mind? You… -groan- Christ, doll… you can’t just say things like that. I’m an old man… you’ll give me a heart attack. -chuckle- -sigh- Wait… doll… I… everything I said, I know… I’m not ready for all of it yet. Y’know, bonding… having kids. Not for a little while, at least. -pause- I know… and it means the fucking world to me that you’re okay with knowing that I… do want those things eventually. With you. And that you're open to it, and… patient with me. I'm still trying to get better at… asking for what I want, since it's so fucking hard to feel like I deserve any of it… but having you here, encouraging me, makes it so much easier. -kiss- I love you, doll.