Soothing, Loving Care for a Male TW: [rape] Victim
Performed by u/ReadByRanae
SFX by u/PointyAux, Epidemic Sound, AudioElk, and u/ReadByRanae
Summary:
My male friend was a victim of rape. That's what it was.
It doesn't matter that he's a man. It doesn't matter that she was attractive. It doesn't matter that he ejaculated, that his case never stood a chance, or that people joke about the "absurdity" of a woman raping a man.
It was rape with all the trauma and devastation that follows.
We unfortunately still cross paths with... you know who... to finish out our program. A few days ago, I almost went to prison. If it hadn't been for him, I would have. Let's just say he physically held me back during a confrontation at one of those occasional and inopportune meetings.
Because of him, I only faced a week's suspension instead of the being completely kicked out of our program.
Later, he offered to bring me notes from the sessions I'd missed. That's how he ended up in my room. That's how he ended up in my arms, crying. In my embrace, he meekly asks for help. He asks if the two of us could make love, and I feel like I just stepped into a minefield.
The thought of... us... had crossed my mind, but I hadn't exactly been checking for him. I also hadn't pushed the possibility out of my mind. But what IS on my mind MORE than the romantic prospects is just how vulnerable he is right now. If I say "yes", am I taking advantage of him? Would I be re-victimizing him? The one thing I do know is that being with him feels like love. Maybe not romantic love, not yet, but love.
I love him.
A realization hits me as the two of us fall back onto my bed: He doesn't have a lot of sexual experience.
Why the Hell didn't you put two and two together before now? The violation of that experience is his only yardstick for what physical intimacy is. No wonder he asked for this.
He wants to know that there can be something more.
I'm going to show him what sex can be, what sex should be. Because I'm his friend. Because I care about him. Because right now he's so horribly alone, and he needs someone. Because I love him.
I'll work him through this, show him the power of trust, reciprocation, and love, and then... I'll have to see if I ever have the strength to let him go.
Total Listening Time: [51:38]