Hey, so…this was not the plan. I was going to celebrate hitting 300 followers with a RambleFap, but instead, I just got stuck in my head. Too much pressure, too much expectation - so, well, no fap. Just a whole lot of me spiraling, talking through it, and trying to figure out what the hell to do. This audio is a mess. I admit that. I’m anxious, I’m embarrassed, I’m trying to talk myself down, and then somehow, I get sidetracked into discussing blowjobs (the kind I like, the attitude behind them, the philosophy of good head), and then I even go on a weird little detour into apologizing on behalf of men everywhere. I don’t know, it just happened. I don’t know if anyone will enjoy this….but I do know that I spent the whole time debating whether I should post it, and whenever that happens, it usually means I should. So here it is - raw, unfiltered, unpolished, just me. Maybe you’ll find it relatable. Maybe you’ll think it’s ridiculous. Maybe you’ll have advice. Either way, thank you for 300 followers. Can’t believe it, infinitely grateful for all of you. thx for giving me hope & a chance <3. And if you do listen…let me know what you think. Should I delete this and pretend it never happened, or was this worth sharing? No wrong answers. Thank you :) Tons. XoXo, YourInsideVoice(s)