Hey, lovely listeners. I tried. I really did. I had all the gear set up, the energy was there earlier in the day… but by the time I hit record, something in me just… shut down. Anxiety, exhaustion, overthinking - all the things that make arousal feel impossible. I couldn’t stay hard. Couldn’t stay present. I say it out loud in the audio, too: “Should I even post this???” Spoiler alert: I’m posting it. Not because it’s sexy (it’s not), but because I think it’s honest. And maybe that matters, too. This is less of a RambleFap and more of me, spiraling quietly into the mic - stumbling through all the parts of being human that don’t usually make the cut. The tiredness. The doubt. The silence between the lines. If you came here looking for my usual horny, switchy self… you might want to skip this one. But if you’re someone who’s ever felt stuck in your head, who’s wrestled with your own mind and wanted to be seen anyway - maybe this is for you. It’s the start of May. And I’m still shaking off some April showers. I hope they bloom into something better soon. I’m doing what I can. I don’t know if I’ll ever post something like this again. But if you’re here now - if you’re listening - I just want to say thank you for being part of this strange little corner of the internet with me. It means more than you know. I’m Your Inside Voices. And I’m hoping I never have to record something like this again :) (XOXO)