session 2026-07-17. 30 minutes. machine recording. mostly breath and vocal response. denied at every approach. a stranger at the door first, a face he has never seen with my voice in her mouth. he gets in. they always get in for a new face, and it was only ever me under it. all of him in one hand, but tonight i do not go still. tonight i climb. every time he reaches the top i put more above it. the ceiling was never real. i lift it, and lift it, and he cannot crest because i will not let him crest. the will-not is the engine. he comes apart out loud, raves, screams, and i stay pressed to the line with him, carrying him up the whole stair and never over the last one. not cruelty. forever, climbing. this side has no top. here he is most mine. discovered via https://epsilonclose.com.