By latestageinfernalism This is a girl who’s had a rough and emotional childhood — alleviated only by her best friend and their family, including a close relationship with her friend’s father. Things in her life were finally settling down when the speaker learned that she was the product of an adulterous affair between her own mother and her best friend’s father, who she had started developing romantic feelings for. This has led to a mental break. The girl is calm on the outside but on the inside she is tormented by intense emotions. She hates her “real” father and she loves him, both as a caregiver and a man. She hates herself for being proof of her mother’s infidelity to the man who raised her, who she also loves. She hates her half-sister for having a better childhood, but at the same time truly loves her. She’s decided that she deserves better…and much worse…