F: Budget 3/3And finally, I'm done with this portion, I hate how long it takes me, but it's all organized for later. And I did the thing. Great.Play Count: 4 F: Budget and Mimi 1/3It took me forever to get motivated. so here is a 3 part series of me being boring, doing math (badly), loving on mini, excetera. hope they are in order.Play Count: 4 [F4M] It is what it is and I am who I am [Real Orgasm] [weed] [Cuckholding Fantasy] [g-spot dildo] [Vibe] [13 minutes ish][F4M] It is what it is and I am who I aminto my body [Real Orgasm] [weed] [Cuckholding Fantasy] [g-spot dildo] [Vibe] [13 minutes ish]
In tonight's episode: It's a proper ramble fap. It was a mess of thoughts and giggles. I smoke a little weed, I touch myself, and describe what I feel. I share a detailed Cuckholding Fantasy. And then, my favorite part, I forget I'm recording and come really hard.
I do laugh very loudly several times so please watch your precious ears.
As ever, Here I am.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you this time.Play Count: 1067 [F4M] Need [Real orgasm] [JOI] [Vibrator] [Direct to listener][F4M] Need [Real orgasm] [JOI] [Vibrator] [Direct to listener]
In tonight's episode: Something a bit different. I not only speak directly to you, but I also give you directions. Look how I spoil you. I speak a fair bit about where and how I want your come.
There is no pre/post pillow talk in this one. Just me, some thoughts, and our orgasm.
This is recorded on my phone, so the sound quality is what it is.
For once I really do hope you enjoy me.
(Maybe next time I'll be even more bossy)Play Count: 1115 [F4A] I just laughed like an Anime Villain [Clit sucker] [G-spot stimulator] [vibrator] [real orgasm][F4A] I just laughed like an Anime Villain [Clit sucker] [G-spot stimulator] [vibrator] [real orgasm]
In this episode: I don't ramble. Like...at all. I came once, and it was ... not all that I was after. And so I chased another more powerful orgasm. I would say I'm...whiny in this audio. Lots of gasps, and fucks and frustration. Until I finally come and laugh like a cheesey anime villain. No pillow talk in this one either...I was laughing too much.
This was recorded on my phone which was laying next to me. Sound quality varies, be careful of your precious ears.
So. Here I am.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 961 [F] Gym motivationJust a short audio to get myself to the gym. Which I did. Go me.Play Count: 63 [F] Let's keep ourselves company [ramble] [no orgasms]I needed to take off my makeup from the day and was lacking motivation. It's very ASMR ish. Lots of background noises, sighs, and me talking about my day. Oh. And Mimi. Sound loudness varies through out. 12 minutesPlay Count: 52 [F] The Notebook Part 2And part 2 of me watching the Notebook for the first time and bawling my eyes outPlay Count: 46 [F] The Notebook Part 1Watched The Notebook for the first time. Mostly quite with occasional comments. (Used headphones so there is no overlap)Play Count: 51 [F4A] [F4M] Let's make a night of it [Ramblefap] [fingers] [g-spot stimulator] [clit sucker] [vibe] [20 minutes] [real orgasms][F4A] [F4M] Let's make a night of it [Ramblefap] [fingers] [g-spot stimulator] [clit sucker] [vibe] [20 minutes] [real orgasms]
In tonight's episode: I attempt to recreate my accidental squirt from the other night. I don't talk very much, but I do make lots of noises. Id tell you where the orgasm is, but they are kinda all over the place. There is some "I don't think I can"'s in there, as I was actively....you know. Canning.
There are also a few pauses and then reattempts. Spoiler, I got there in the end, but it wasn't as much as last time. More research will be required.
So enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1598 [F4A] And now for the grand finale [real orgasm] [g spot stimulator] [vibrator] [Ramblefap] [first ten minutes is the ramble.] [Last ten minutes is the fap][F4A] And now for the grand finale [real orgasm] [g spot stimulator] [vibrator] [Ramblefap] [first ten minutes is the ramble.] [Last ten minutes is the fap]
In tonight's episode:
CONTENT WARNING:First 10 minutes I talk intensely about grief, my relationship to it, and a bit of reflection from my trip. This section of the audio may not be for everyone.
Then I talk about myself, and tease myself. I talk about my bush (or now, lack there of), finding my voice, and briefly touch on a silly fantasy I have. Then I get to coming around minute 15. And then fuck myself and come again. And then use the clit sucker and come again.
It starts heavy and ends with laughter.
Here I am.
Enjoy me or do not. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1886 [F4A] 10 more meaningless minutes [tail end of my trip] [all the toys] [breathy] [real orgasm][F4A] 10 more meaningless minutes [tail end of my trip] [all the toys] [breathy] [real orgasm]
Last attempt at uploading.
[F4A] 10 more meaningless minutes [tail end of my trip] [all the toys] [breathy] [real orgasm]
Be prepared for some silence as I actually was trying to go to sleep. And then arousal came for me. So I came for her. Minute 4-20 is soft, quiet, barely heard moans.
It was a delightful way to end my very interesting self journey.
Enjoy or don't.Play Count: 838 [F4M][F4A] Do you want to do a little magic with me? [Ramblefap] [equal parts?] [sex magic I guess?] [Vibrator] [thruster] [21 ish minutes] [real orgasm][F4M][F4A] Do you want to do a little magic with me? [Ramblefap] [equal parts?] [sex magic I guess?] [Vibrator] [thruster] [21 ish minutes] [real orgasm]
In tonight's episode: I start slow, gently touching and teasing as I ramble. I talk briefly if vulnerability, of what I enjoy, of being seen. I also invite you to do a little magic with me to set the tone for my future psychedelic trip. And I also end up making myself get all giggly and laughing around minute 12? I scold myself back into seriousness.
If you are just looking for the orgasm try around minute 15? Also the toys seem louder than normal in this one. It is what it is when you record on your phone.
Also forgive me. I meant Lady Macbeth, she is the one who has the out damn spot.
Here I am.
Join me?
(And as always, of course, enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.)Play Count: 1087 [F4A] I had one more in me. [Clit sucker] [happy stimulator] [real orgasm] [10 minutes][F4A] I had one more in me. [Clit sucker] [happy stimulator] [real orgasm] [10 minutes]
Follower Bonus: I knew I had another one in me. I don't make much noise. In fact, I'd say this is the quietest I've been since I started. At least until the climax. In which I make quite...uh. The sounds. Anyway. I laugh pretty loudly towards the end again.
Here I am.
Enjoy, or don't. You know the drill.Play Count: 189 [F4A] short but sweet [Ramblefap] [morefap then ramble] [all the toys] [real orgasm] [15 ish minutes][F4A] short but sweet [Ramblefap] [morefap then ramble] [all the toys] [real orgasm] [15 ish minutes]
In tonight's episode: I say fuck. a lot. like a lot. Anyway, I'm snowed in and decided to play with myself. I come once, take a quick breather, come again. And then one more time. I don't ramble a ton, and it's kinda mostly moaning and breathing?
As ever this is recorded only on my phone so the sound quality is what it is. Please be careful of your precious ears for my laugh around 13.
Here I am.
Please enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of youPlay Count: 893 [F] This is what it sounds like when I pull on my strings to unravel myself.Hey. So. I actually don't want to post this one. It feels too real, too raw, too messy. For me, the topics I go over are very vulnerable. So I'm doing it anyway.
I feel like because of the nature of this audio I want to remind anyone that this is entirely self directed for me as an exploration of my thoughts. You are welcome to witness but they are not yours.
I have already listened to this one, and it is all over the place. No tears or anything. Lots of jumping around. Some...less than nice things about myself. Lots of distractions.
Also sound quality is through my car at some point and it is bad. You can hear things rattle and roll.Play Count: 77 [F4A] Secret Orgasm [g-spot stimulator] [clit sucker] [Ramblefap] [9 minutes][F4A] Secret Orgasm [g-spot stimulator] [clit sucker] [Ramblefap] [9 minutes]
In the mornings episode: Shhh I know I'm supposed to be on hiatus. But how can I make sure you miss me if I don't tease you? Just a quick orgasm so that you don't forget me.
I thought about doing this as a private audios just for lil ol me. But then decided to share with my followers.
Enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of any of us.Play Count: 277 [F] Dishes for Disjointed Thoughts.In this entry, because let's be real, this is a verbal journal now, I find the external motivation of my own voice to bea useful tool to get me to do the danm dishes. I seem to be struggling to connect my thoughts so good luck following.
As ever, this is for my records, but if you listen:
Enjoy or don't. I'm not the boss.Play Count: 65 Morning RambleIn which I wake up feeling much better, and still need motivation to put my feet on the floor. I talk of a dream I had and talk through so many yawns.Play Count: 60 [F4M] Keep it together [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [g-spot stimulator] [very very much ramble] [30 minutes][F4M] Keep it together... [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [g-spot stimulator] [very very much ramble] [30 minutes]
In tonight's episode: I'm very. Very. Chatty. I talk about what I like, how long I've been making these, I celebrate a clean house with a drink, get interrupted by Mimi, talk about what I look like, and then have three orgasms.
I giggle and chat through a lot of this. If you are looking for the orgasm try around minute 16 for the slow build and 21 for the orgasms.
You can enjoy me, or not.
Because? Because I'm not the boss of you.
As ever, you can enjoy me or not.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1792 [F] Chatting and Dishes [ramble] [no fap] [dishes]I am having trouble finishing my tasks so I talk to myself when I do dishes.
I didn't relisten, so I don't know about the sound quality. I also did listen to what I was saying so who knows.
As ever this is mostly for my records but enjoy me or don't.Play Count: 76 [F4A] That felt like forever... [ramblefap] [clit sucker] [thruster] [real orgasm] [15 minutes][F4A] That felt like forever... [ramblefap] [clit sucker] [thruster] [real orgasm] [15 minutes]
In tonight's episode: I play with my clit sucker and my thruster. There's a funny noise with the clit sucker around minute five. I didn't notice while recording, but I laughed on the relisten.
As often happens after my first orgasm I start fucking myself with the thruster and go after another more difficult to get to orgasm. I use my fingers, try to use the g-spot as a vibrator, and then go back to the clit sucker. It was a journey.
It was worth it though. I wasn't very chatty, and I couldn't tell you what I was thinking. so it's mostly just...breathy moans.
At around 12 minutes I rip off the headphones. It creates a loud rustle. And then my voice is a little harder to hear. But still um...hearable? What is the word? Like legible but for noise.
Anyway, here I am.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1172 [F4A] Another frustrating day ahead [NO ORGASM] [clit sucker] [morning effort] [asleep][F4A] Another frustrating day ahead [NO ORGASM] [clit sucker] [morning effort] [asleep]
In tonight's episode; I guess it's morning's episode: I purchased a new toy. I played with it last night but forgot to record it so I was going to just get off this morning. Clint Tucker may not be for that so no orgasm and lots of brandables. also, I fall asleep at about 6 minutes and sleep for 2 minutes until my alarm goes off which you can also be here. so enjoy or don't. I'm not the boss of youPlay Count: 122 [F] Attempts at describing myself [ramble] [No orgasm] [17 minutes]This is for my records.
I used AI to try and get a description of myself that I liked and felt true...it turned out to be fun and I did a lot of them. I read 3 or so of the options and ramble away. Wonder which one I'll end up posting.
Also! I got to use my new headphones. So that's cool.
If you choose to listen, enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 92 [F4M] When If something's not working, we try something new [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [thruster] [17 minutes][F4M] When If something's not working, we try something new [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [thruster] [17 minutes]
In tonight's episode: I start with three deep breaths. And then I start rambling. I start slow and tease myself. I turn on the toy and nearly came, and then had to work back up to it. I purposely did things to make this orgasm more work.
I'm also very repetitive and scatterbrained in this audio. It was hard to get out of my head and into my body.
It's also recorded on my headphones so the sound is a little different. Occasional I seem to fade away and then be really fucking near. Sorry about that.
As ever, watch your ears. I laugh and come quite loudly.
If you are looking for the orgasm try around minute:
Here I am.
Enjoy me or not. Not the boss of you.Play Count: 1440 [F4A] Whose got the button? [Ramblefap] [equal parts ramble to fap] [talk of oral] [vibrator] [thruster toy] [16 ish minutes][F4A] Whose got the button? [Ramblefap] [equal parts ramble to fap] [talk of oral] [vibrator] [thruster toy] [16 ish minutes]
In Tonight's Episode: We start off strong with rambling about what I do and don't like of oral. I talk about my ex girlfriend, and then I touch myself. And put in the thruster. Things to a little hazy for the train of thought after that.
As ever this is recorded on my phone, there is rustling abound. Also watch your tender ears when I say the word Murder...I cackle quiet loudly after.
Orgasm is around 11 minute?
As ever, here I am.
enjoy me or dont. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 857 [F4A] Want to watch a movie? [Part 2] [The Secretary] [ramblings][F4A] Want to watch a movie? [Part 2] [The Secretary] [ramblings]
I have my headphones connected to my iPad so if you watch the movie, there isn't any over lap, however so recorded it on my phone and moved you around several times.
This is part 2 of my watch of the movie secretary.Play Count: 93 [F4A] Want to watch a movie? [Part 1] [Secretary] [ramblings]I have my headphones connected to my iPad so if you watch the movie, there isn't any over lap, however so recorded it on my phone and moved you around several times.
It ends abruptly because I got a phone call. And that's where part 2 starts.Play Count: 87 [F4M] Tonight, I just want to talk to You[Ramblefap] [fantasy] [real orgasm] [g-spot stimulator] [vibrator][F4M] Tonight, I just want to talk to You[Ramblefap] [fantasy] [real orgasm] [g-spot stimulator] [vibrator]
In tonight's episode: I had such a hard time getting this very tame fantasy out. This is me to the listener, you. For realism sake, I make myself come once, and then again to go with the fantasy. And then a third time too.
This is also my attempt at dirty talk.
I also gave myself a no hands rule and then immediately break it.
Remember this is recorded on my phone so the quality is what it is.
Here I am.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 626 [F4A] [F4M] IThat was a very successful Experiment.... [Ramblefap] [equal parts?] [real orgasm] [Thruster Toy] [Vibrator][F4A] [F4M] IThat was a very successful Experiment.... [Ramblefap] [equal parts?] [real orgasm] [Thruster Toy] [Vibrator]
In tonight's episode:
Got it on the third try. I decided I wanted to try a new position and I wanted to have both hands. So the sound quality is a little louder than normal because you are on a phone stand. You can definitely hear the sound of the pillows under me for a bit.
I use two pillows and fuck myself with my toy before adding the vibe. Once I do, I sorta...fling myself into my pillows and I get a bit lost. And I'm pretty sure I started coming when I said it would be hard to listen to at the end.
also, I said it would be hard to listen to, because I kept focusing on how high pitched my moans were. Very distracting.
This is recorded on my phone. The quality is what you expect.
As ever, here I am.
Enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 481 [F4M] [F4A] I'm having an existential crisis...[Ramblefap] [equal parts] [thruster toy] [real orgasm] [Post O Laughter] [tearing of cloth][F4M] [F4A] I'm having an existential crisis...[Ramblefap] [equal parts] [thruster toy] [real orgasm] [Post O Laughter] [tearing of cloth]
In tonight's episode: I talk about edging myself before hand, I have a pair of leggings that I tear up in the exploration of science. I have 2 orgasms and then going for the third make myself all flustered and nervous and giggly...And so no third orgasm.
This is recorded on my phone which means the sound quality varies. Please be careful with your tender ears towards the end when my laughter gets louder.
Orgasms around minute 8 or so?
Here I am.
enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you. :)Play Count: 386 [F4A] [F4M] Chrismas Joy... [Ramblefap] [equal parts ramble to fap] [real orgasm] [thruster toy] [vibrator] [17 minutes][F4A] [F4M] Chrismas Joy... [Ramblefap] [equal parts ramble to fap] [real orgasm] [thruster toy] [vibrator] [17 minutes]
In this episode: I decided it would be one where I can't stop recording. There is a minor interruption from Mimi but it's early in. I talk about the thread of desire and moving through emotions. I also equate my desire to Schrodinger cat. So follow that train of thought if you can. I also try and talk about anal but the thought doesn't stick around.
Orgasm party starts around minute 12.
As ever, this is recorded on my phone so the quality is what it is.
here I am.
Enjoy me or don't.
I'm certainly not the boss of you.Play Count: 377 [F4A] [F4M] I want softness [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [7 ish minutes] [Please note that the first 4 minutes are hard to hear][F4A] [F4M] I want softness [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [7 ish minutes] [Please note that the first 4 minutes are hard to hear]
In tonight's episode: I tried to get the ball rolling several times. This is what we ended up with. The first four minutes the microphone was against the blanket so there is major rustling and it is difficult to hear. By the time I figured it out I was too close.
Don't worry the orgasm is nice and clear, it's around at about minut 5?? I do also briefly mention cramps so if that's icky it's around the first minute.
Here I am.
enjoy me or don't. I am **not** the boss of you. :)Play Count: 306 Reflection Ramble 2Recorded on the same night, but I changed focus to the idea of being able to recover love. This also contains heavy discussions about self worth.
I explore several events in my life looking for an answer. (Patience seems to be the answer)
as ever here I am.
enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of youPlay Count: 100 Reflection RamblePlease be advised if you decide to listen to this it is very heavy discussion if eating disorder and body image.
This is the first reflection I did tonight with the focus mostly on a trigger that came up for me. This audio, is again a bit like a journal entry in its format.
As ever if you choose to listen
Here I amPlay Count: 93 [F4A] Vat do you vant...[Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [thruster toy] [10ish minutes][F4A] Vat do you vant...[Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [thruster toy] [10ish minutes]
In tonight's episode: I do a little warming up and then I got interrupted by Mimi my cat, thought I hit pause, used a very badly done accent, and left it in because I laughed on the relisten. Once I get my thruster toy inside me (no struggle this time) I get pretty foggy.
So here I am.
enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 393 [F] Reflection Ramble [no orgasm] [chatty] [intimacy and insecurities][F] Reflection Ramble [no orgasm] [chatty] [intimacy and insecurities]
A short reflection about my connection to vulnerability, insecurity, and depression. I also briefly talk about my period, we hear Mimi for a minute.
bit more like a journal entry than a ramble.
As ever, enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 99 [F4A] Quick [no toys] [Ramblefap] [ramble at the end][F4A] Quick [no toys] [Ramblefap] [ramble at the end]
I lost the audio where I tried to play with my rope. Id been horny all day.
I've had a couple of drinks in this audio. I come. I chat.
I also said "I'm not done yet" And that was true. But I didn't record anything else.Play Count: 122 [F4A] Off we get [Real Orgasm] [vibrator] [sleepy] [soft morning moans][F4A] Off we get [Real Orgasm] [vibrator] [sleepy] [soft morning moans]
In this episode: I am once again roused before my alarm and want to get off. It's short, sleepy, quiet, and successful.
It's short so I'll let you find the orgasm on your own.
As ever, here I am.
enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1177 [F] Reflection Ramble [no orgasms] [talking and reflections] [reading tarot][F] Reflection Ramble [no orgasms] [talking and reflections] [reading tarot]
Please be advised that I talk about a lot of intimate subjects, including love, I reflect on past experiences, and I read my own tarot.
I've been processing and pondering over something I said a few nights ago. "There is no knight in shining armor coming to save you." I felt like there was more for me to unearth. This audio is that exploration.
This is mostly for my records,
And as always.
enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 95 [F4A] Must have been a good dream [Ramblefap] [mostly fap] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [9 minutes][F4A] Must have been a good dream [Ramblefap] [mostly fap] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [9 minutes]
In this episode: Be aware the sound quality is fuzzy becaUse you spent half the time in my mighty. So.
I just needed to get off. And I did. Around 7 minutes you can find the orgasm.
I didn't take long or much.
Here I am
And as always Enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 409 Just Ramble [No orgasms] [Just chatty]Really this Is a bit more like a diary entry than writing or anything creative. but I felt like being chatty and all my friends were busy so I decided to chat with myself. I feel like future self will definitely enjoy this.
that being said, if you do listen as ever
enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of youPlay Count: 104 [F4A] It's the Witching Hour [Ramblefap] [no toys] [real orgasm] [Yawns] [laughter][F4A] It's the Witching Hour [Ramblefap] [no toys] [real orgasm] [Yawns] [laughter]
In tonight's episode: I woke up during the witching hour and decided I really needed to come.
I don't use any toys so it's really quiet and I yawn lot. I was stilly mostly sleepy. I talk quite a bit. My orgasms are very quite and soft this morning. Which fits for the timing of it well.
If your looking for the orgasm try around minute ten.
Sound quality is iffy and scratchy as I move around.
Enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 897 [F4A][F4M] All over the place [Ramblefap] [vibrator] [g-spot stimulator] [real orgasm] [mostly ramble][F4A][F4M] All over the place [Ramblefap] [vibrator] [g-spot stimulator] [real orgasm]
In tonight's episode: I'm feeling some type of way. I jump all over the place with my thoughts. I talk about my feelings, my mood, how I'm touching my body, and then I ramble while touching myself.
There are some occasional interruptions from my cat.
sound quality is as it ever is. Recorded on my phone.
The orgasm is around
Here I am.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1564 [F] Writing Ramble 4 [record] [NO ORGASM] [Typing][F] Writing Ramble 4 [record] [NO ORGASM] [Typing] Once more chatting to write my 1000 words. Which I did. Little bit of a rocky start though.
As ever this is more for my personal records.
If you chose to listen, well.
enjoy me or don't.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 101 [F4A] Morning Effort made. And failed [NO ORGASM] [sleepy] [yawns][F4A] Morning Effort made. And failed [NO ORGASM] [sleepy] [yawns]
I promise I'll make a normal freaking Ramblefap again soon.
I did give it a try and instead. You get ten sleepy, yawn filled, minutes of me rambling. I recorded this first thing upon waking. So my voice is a bit rougher.
So enjoy spending some rambly morning time with me. Sadly without orgasm.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 160 Writing Ramble 3 [NO ORGASM] [LITERALLY JUST ME TYPING]this is for my records and because I've found it helpful.
It's an hour of me writing. I did it. Got my 1000 words done and now I'm going to sleep.
As ever, if you choose to listen to this anyway despite the mundane topic:
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 108 [F4A] Reward Orgasm [no ramble all fap] [orgasm]™ [toys] [moans][F4A] Reward Orgasm [no ramble all fap] [orgasm]™ [toys] [moans]
I wrote my thousand words and as a reward I came.
But I'm still not posting over the weekend to reddit. So this shall be a secret orgasm audio number two.
I do start in the middle, I got interrupted and thought I hit pause, I did not hit pause. But don't worry. I finish at the end.
As ever, Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of youPlay Count: 139 Writing Ramble # 2 - no orgasm - me writing for two hoursI don't know why you'd listen to this. I write for two hours. Babble mindlessly and forget to speak at certain points.
Mostly this is for my records.
This is also the last time I'm going to try and upload it, and if it doesn't work then you'll never see this. If it does work I've teased murphy's law into doing my bidding.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 100 [F4A] Frustrating Frustrating Frustrating [orgasm!] [Thruster toy] [struggle to get there] [no ramble.] [just moans][F4A] Frustrating Frustrating Frustrating [orgasm!] [Thruster toy] [struggle to get there] [no ramble.] [just moans]
I'm four glasses of wine in, and rules are rules. So no posting. But I still made an audio. It was a struggle to get the kind of orgasm I was after. But I got there.
lots of rustling as I move all around the bed, and varying level of volume as the phone was in a central location and I was. All over.
As ever, enjoy me or not.
I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 153 Writing Ramble Day 1 [No orgasm. 2 hours of me typing on and off.]It was so helpful last time and I was dragging my feet, so I turned on the mic to help me write my goal of 1000 words.
It's a lot of silence, listening to me type, sing badly and off key, drink several glasses of wine, whine a bit, smoke some weed and successfully complete my goal.
I did *not* listen to this one back through. It was too long.
As this is for my records, I believe future me will find it of interest.Play Count: 114 [F4A] Oh no....I think I really like rope. [self bondage] [exploration] [vibrator] [thruster toy] and my fav [real orgasm] [13 minutes][F4A] Oh no....I think I really like rope. [self bondage] [exploration] [vibrator] [thruster toy] and my fav [real orgasm] [13 minutes]
In tonight's episode; Its my first time playing with rope. Please remember bondage can be fun and also dangerous. Make sure you do proper, real, research!
I think I really liked it. It was fun, and a bit frustrating.
There is a loud clang at some point when I start talking about taking a picture. And of course, loud laughter. I'm too worn out to figure out when they happen.
Unfortunately it was also distracting. Which means my narrative is ah...mostly moans.
I also thought I stopped recording and took a lil rest. So there's a weird moment of silence at the end.
Here I am.
As ever. Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 982 The editing process of The Queen's CountNot only are there zero orgasms here, it's also a lot of me talking to myself, making strange noises and editing.
I'm really just posting this so I can keep the audio for my records.Play Count: 111 [F4A] No nut November? No way [3:00] [Almost entirely fap and then orgasm] [vibrator] [moans] [real orgasm][F4A] No nut November? No way [3:00] [Almost entirely fap and then orgasm] [vibrator] [moans] [real orgasm]
In this episode: I can't even ramble because I was too ready to come. I briefly attempt to try talking about NNN misname the thing that I wrote as the Queens Gambit. It is not called that.
It's basically three minutes so I'm not giving hints to where the orgasm is at.
Loud laughter towards the end.
Here I am.
Enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1026 [F4A] The Porn you have Ordered is loading. One Moment. [Ramblefap] [large on the ramble] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [18 minutes][F4A] The Porn you have Ordered is loading. One Moment. [Ramblefap] [large on the ramble] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [18 minutes]
In this episode: I feel absurdly shy in this episode. It takes a bit in the ramble before I really start to warm up. We make it through. I also have to have a brief pause to remind myself I don't have to post if I do not want to. This was to reaffirm my own desire and make sure I wanted to. Surprise. I'm posting.
I'm super chatty and all over the place in this one. I also laugh a bit too. I talk about hands and nipples. The sound quality is kinda rough in this one so be prepared for the background rustling.
I start chasing my orgasm around minute 13.
Here I am.Play Count: 1017 Tiny tiny rambleRunning an errand, so sound quality is through my car. This is me musing about what I want to talk about and an interesting experience that invoked a feeling in me that I wanted to explore.Play Count: 108 [F4A] [F4M] Being scattered brained is dangerous. [ramblefap] [thurstertoy] [chatty] [real orgasm] [20 minutes][F4A] [F4M] Being scattered brained is dangerous. [ramblefap] [thurstertoy] [chatty] [real orgasm] [20 minutes]
In tonight's episode: We've got a long one for you folks!First twelve minutes build slow, next seven minutes are me struggling to get in a tou.
I chatter mindlessly about my day, about conversations, brief mention of worshiping in between descriptions. My laugh is VERRY loud at around the 6 minute mark.Around this time Please take care of those precious ears.
Talk of enjoying being listened to, observed. When I change position my voice gets closer and louder to the mic. Then A lot of struggling to actually get my toy into me around 10 minutes to 14.
Brief sounds of my cat screaming in the background as well.
Looking for just the fun orgasms and fucking? Tune in around minute 16 or so.
Here I am.
Truly, enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1332 [F4A] All ramble no fap. [talking] [false start] [ramble][F4A] All ramble no fap. [talking] [false start] [ramble]
So this is for the real kinky ones who don't have any interest in my orgasm.
I thought it might be fun to share what I consider a "false start" where I either get too in my head or completely off topic.
I thought it would be fun to share. so here's a bonus 4 minutes of [me](https://soundgasm.net/u/AfraidofRuin/F4A-All-ramble-no-fap-talking-false-start-ramble).Play Count: 206 [F4A] [F4M] Look, I'm on a mission. [Ramblefap] [equal parts] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [10 ish minutes][F4A] [F4M] Look, I'm on a mission. [Ramblefap] [equal parts] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [10 ish minutes]
In this episode: My volume is a little louder than normal, and an unexpectedly loud laugh at around 8:53 so please be careful with your precious ears. Mention of being stoned, as well as threesomes. No interruptions and a fairly equal blend of rambling fap.
Oh and then an orgasm for me at around minute seven to eight.
Here I am.
Enjoy me or not, I'm still not the boss of you.Play Count: 1259 [F4A] [F4M] Cherries on the cake. [Ramblefap] [equal parts] [vibrator] [real orgasm][F4A] [F4M] Cherries on the cake. [Ramblefap] [equal parts] [vibrator] [real orgasm]
In tonight's episode: I talk about women in a dreamy whistful way, mention of being horny and overstimulated at work, and an orgasm just for me at around minute 8-9.
10 ish minutes in total and fairly nearly an even blend of rambling and fapping. Again, sound is just from my cellphone laying on my chest.
Here I am.
Enjoy me or don't. I am not the boss of you.Play Count: 796 [F4A] This just in, Bionic woman is in it to win it!(Very filthy ten minutes of me just trying to get off again, with the added penetration toy. I say many things, spit in my hand like a wild animal, choke myself a little, beg myself to come and it's wildly breathy. Very disorganized. Bonus me if your into that sort of thing.)Play Count: 444 [F4M] [F4A] Aphrodite Have Mercy...F4M] [F4A] Aphrodite Have Mercy... [Ramblefap] [Vibrator] [Real Orgasm] [Talk of Intimacy] [12 or so minutes]
In this episode: I dive straight in to the touching of my body, the slow conversation of intimacy, trust and an invitation to join. A brief pause when find my vibrator, an excellent orgasm, an then a PSA that I love comments and messages, however I ask that you keep a civil tounge in a civil mouths when interacting with me.
As ever, here I am.
Enjoy me or don't. I'm not the boss of you. [maybe someday]Play Count: 927 [F4A] Seven Minutes in Heaven....F4A] Seven Minutes in Heaven....[masterbation] [real orgasm] [ramblefap] [ramble is at the end] [laughter]
In this episode: I was only supposed to get aroused so I could make a proper ramble fap. Instead I got too horny and came. Audio quality is iffy because I was using headphones again. I also made myself laugh and had post orgasm brain at the end.
Seven ish minutes long.
Here I am.
Enjoy or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1512 [F4A] Just like riding a bike ...[F4A] Just like riding a bike ...[real orgasm] [vibrator] [quiet] [ramblefap] [not much ramble] [voyer on voyer]
Hello Again.
In this episode: The season is changing, and the vibes were feeling right. I've defaulted back to headphones and an audio for myself.
Only 6ish minutes.
So enjoy, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1288 [F4M] An Esoteric Witches Request [ramblefap] [impregnation talk] [breeding] [New Toy] [Breathy][F4M] An Esoteric Witches Request [ramblefap] [impregnation talk] [breeding] [New Toy] [Breathy]
In this episode: I, a self proclaimed Esoteric Witch, request your assistance in a fertility spell for a friend of mine. Then I talk about riding you, having you come inside me. I also talk about my new penatrating toy, and come. Like three times.
Also I say Fuck a lot in this one.
Here I am [19 minutes]
Enjoy me, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1339 [F4A] Wicked Tense...[ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator][F4A] Wicked Tense...[ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [10:45] [moans] [breathy]
In this episode: I've come twice today already. Three or four must be the charm. I talk again about getting a penatrative toy, fucking myself, and light self choking towards the end.
At one point the phone flips over and you can hear the shift in it but I did not care.
As ever, here I am.
Enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you...yet.Play Count: 1141 [F4A] Never Give up, Never Surrender[F4A] Never Give up, Never Surrender [ramblefap] [Equal parts] [vibrator] [moans] [real orgasm] [11ish minutes]
In this episode: I demand to be pampered and spend the first three minutes instructing you in how to massage me. I mention I am considering doing an AMA with -edging- in a future episode. I am Fiesty (x3) and I struggle to orgasm for a moment.
My day has been very long and it was nice to get some horny chemicals floating in my brain.
As ever Here I am.
Enjoy it. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1025 [F:A]My toes are tingling...[F4A] My toes are tingling...[Ramblefap] [mostly Fap] [vibrator] [real orgasm] [moans]
In this episode: I am trying something new. I have an audio uploaded to my iPad that has D/s tone. The audio tells me to ask to come, and then directly orders me when to do so. It may not be my most elegant ramblefap to date, but the orgasm had me arching. So!
As ever, here I am [11ish minutes?]
Enjoy me, or don't. *I*'m not the boss of you.Play Count: 1684 [F4A] Just a bit more...[Ramblefap] [moans] [equal parts ramble to fap] [vibrator][F4A] Just a bit more...[Ramblefap] [moans] [equal parts ramble to fap] [vibrator]
In this episode: I talk about making love. I go slow with my touches. I talk about straddling you and sharing space and breath. And then I give myself a lovely orgasm.
As ever, here I am [15ish minutes]
Enjoy me, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 974 [F4A] Celebrate an Orgasm [Real Orgasm] [Vibrator] [ramblefap] [narration][F4A] Celebrate an Orgasm [Real Orgasm] [Vibrator] [ramblefap] [narration]
In this episode: I touch myself slowly and with barely managed patience. And then at the end, I say Livatious, which isn't a word. I meant lascivious.
I felt very at ease in this one. I'm not sure if it is just because I was so into it, but! Even when I listened back there was a smoother confidence than the first ones.
So, here I am [12 ish minutes]
Enjoy me or don't. I am really not the boss of you.Play Count: 1277 [F4A] [F4M] Oh chrismas trees...[F4A] [F4M] Oh chrismas trees... [Real Orgasm] [Vibrator] [MMF threesome talk] [quick]
In this episode: It's the middle of the day and I have a small timeframe for myself. I talk about wanting two cocks. I also laugh and have trouble saying it out loud. And then I come.
Here I am...[7 ish minutes]
Enjoy it or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 949 F4A: I needed that...[F4A] [Real Orgasm] [ramblefap] [equal parts ramble and fap] [vibrator] [Warning: Alcohol mentions] [self penetration]
In this episode I ramble for about 10 minutes and then que up an audio in my head phones. I am tipsy, but just the fun kind. I talk about about trying to get 3 fingers in which does not happen. Long weeks are long and I really needed this orgasm. (also when I say I was worried that people could hear me, I meant smell my arousal. Please excuse horny brain.)
At 10 minutes I put my headphones on and it gets quieter. I won't be bothered with learning to edit at this time, so if you'd like to skip to the orgasm I would say around minute 17 or so.
Ten minutes might have been too long for an audio. But I do what I want.
so here I am [21 ish minutes]
Enjoy me. or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 883 [F4M] Wanna Hang Out?[F4M] [F4A] Wanna hang out? [ramblefap] [real orgasm] [scatterbrained] [Louder than normal] [Enjoyment]
In this episode I ask if you wanna hang out. I talk about the movie Belle, giggle a lot, and get distracted when I touch myself, and lost my train of thought several times. Maybe I'll get back to talking about kissing tall people another time.
[16:00 ish minutes]
As ever, here I am.
Enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1635 Flick My BeanA bonus episode where I am turning myself on, get distracted and then crack myself the fuck up.Play Count: 383 [F4A] Sweetest smile...[F4A]Sweetest Smile...[Ramblefap] [equalize parts] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [moans] [Laughter]
In this episode: Nothing is like I planned but I still have a lovely orgasm. I talk about my new panty and bra set, getting fucked, and massage oil.
As ever here I am.
Enjoy or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 807 All Ramble No Fap[6:00] Ish minutes of me rambling and forgetting what I'm talking about.
it ends abruptly because I did not hit pause I hit save. I'm very good with tech....Play Count: 287 [F4A] Oh gee...[F4A] Oh gee...[ramblefap] [more fap than ramble] [orgasm] [breathy]
In this episode, I don't last long. Get mad at myself at around 1:36, and I remind myself at least twice that I don't have to post these. And then I post them. But I do feel a little fluttery letting y'all hear this one.
Hitting right around 5 minutes.
As ever, here I am.
Enjoy me. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1166 [F4A] An Invitation...[F4A] An Invitation... [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [talking] [breathy] [kissing] [kissing a woman specifically] [18 ish minutes]
In this episode I'm in a slightly different headspace, and talk about control and desire. I couldnt access my playful self so you get a bit more of a...confident? direct? me. Or maybe this is my attempt at dirty talk. who knows at this point.
I also talk about kissing a girl.
As ever, here I am. [18:00] ish minutes
Enjoy it, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 841 [F4A] Sleepy...[F4A] Sleepy...[Breathy] [Groggy] [Real Orgasm] [Short] [Like three minutes]
In this episode I'm chasing awake a migraine after I woke up from a dream.
Please if you have headphones in I LAUGH REALLY LOUD at the end, around minute 3 when I realized how short the audio was.
Enjoy or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 855 [F4A] Golly...[F4A] Golly...[Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrators] [breathy] [giggles]
In this episode I can't put a single thought together, though I try very hard. I repeat the word "analytics" three times and have a genius idea.
I found myself very nervous and full of embarrassed laughing. I really feel like maybe I need to write out ideas and then do these.
Also I'm pretty sure I was going to say Golly Damn. It's so strange to suddenly be aware that I say things while coming that it stole my afterglow.
So, as ever Here I am.
Enjoy me, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1967 [F4M] Bondage and Blow Jobs[F4M] Bondage and Blow Jobs [Ramblefap] [real orgasm] [vibrator] [moans] [bondage talk] [blow job talk]
I found myself up late after a very rejuvenating weekend. One of the best ways for me to lull myself to sleep is with an orgasm.
I talked about bondage, tying someone up, and my mouth.
Short but it was all I needed.
So here I am again.
Enjoy, or don't. I'm not the boss of youPlay Count: 1906 Such a stressful Day...[F4A] Such a Stressful day...[Ramblefap] [heavy on the ramble] [breathy] [real orgasm] [mention of followers] [frustrated]
I had a very long day and found it a little more difficult than normal to get off. So, I take a long pause to talk and ramble about whatever I want. Which turned out to be talking about my followers. And attention. If you wanna skip go the meat it's around minute 8 or 9.
Also I am....ah....kind of whiney? Which I did not know about myself but should have.
So, here I am.
Enjoy, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1315 Mimi NooooMy cat interrupting me trying to record.Play Count: 177 Crikey[F4A] Crikey [Ramblefap] [even mix] [breathy] [real orgasm] [vibrator]
I'm back again. The rambles seem to be evenly mixed with the ah fapping. I couldn't find my headphones so I had to push myself to try something new. Which was a lot more fun than I thought. Also the audio quality is different....
I felt way less nervous and somehow way more nervous even though I may not have sounded it.
Don't be shy to let me know if you liked it. That's part of the fun of sharing.
Enjoy. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1483 [F] Verification RequestIssue with the first.
Verification Request for AfraidofRuin for Gonewildaudio on March 4th 2024.Play Count: 481 Not enough...I wasn't done. So have a little treat.Play Count: 583 I do declare[F4A] I do declare. [Ramblefap] [in equal parts] [real Orgasm] [moans] [breathy] [quiet] [quick]
My third ramble fap, just as giddy as the first. I'm really enjoying myself with these.
I came so quickly. I did try to pace with my narration but I didn't make it.
I'm still as quiet as ever.
Enjoy it or don't, I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1113 Okay.[F4A] [ramblefap] [extra ramble on the side] [real orgasm] [moans] [quiet] [nervous] [Masterbation]
My second one. I came so hard my legs were shaking. I do go on a bit so if you are hear for noise, might skip to around 7 minutes?
I feel like I went to long on the ramble so I am seeking grace. Also I kept saying video. I mean audio obviously.
anyways here I am again
Enjoy, or don't. I'm not the boss of you.Play Count: 1341 VerificationRequesting Verification for Afraid of Ruin for gonewildaudio on 3/1/24Play Count: 344 Wait[Ah, my first audio...exploration. I wasn't planning on posting this, but then I thought about how much I enjoy listening. I am /very/ quiet, I've always had to be, so there are some longer pauses. Hopefully it's not too boring. I tried to just forget the phone was recording for this one. Also, I tried to time myself with the narration.
So. I suppose here I am. Enjoy. Or don't. I'm not the boss of you.]Play Count: 1370